Well...

Life is an extreme challenge these days. I had been trying to intentionally not focus so much on trying to conceive, and just enjoy each month like the previous. That was until my cycle decided to come 6 days late, why, I have no idea. So, that had me in a happy place for quite a while. I begin to think, "oh, maybe this is it, when I least expect it", I was just sure I was pregnant....NOT! That might be one of the worst parts about pregnancy loss, you lose the innocence of trying to make a baby, you lose the innocence of pregnancy because you now know what "could" happen. Now, this is not to say that I am expecting the worst, but I can't forget what happened the first time. This is a tough place to be in, but I have to keep reminding myself that it will happen, its just the wait, that's the not-so-fun part.