Feeling Left Out

Have you ever felt left out? Yes, you say. Well, you understand how I feel these days. It seems like everyone is pregnant or having babies, and while I am not envious of anyone or have no ill feelings concerning another woman's pregnancy, I do however, wonder all the time why hasn't it happened for me. Am I so different from any other woman on earth, what seems to be the problem. Not only have we lost a child, now we are facing complications conceiving. Life can really seem unfair at times.
I had come to a place where I was settled in life, I was intentionally dealing with our loss, and embracing my feelings, whatever they may be. It was always in the back of my mind that I want to have children, but I was getting to the point where I was comfortable and not stressed about trying to conceive. And, let me tell you, IT IS STRESSFUL! But, I was in a pretty good place with it all. And then these thoughts starting finding their way into my mind, I have been longing so much to experience the completeness of pregnancy, I only tasted 16 weeks of it and I was robbed of what should have been one of the greatest joys life has to offer. Its almost like I can touch it; being pregnant again. Its just a really sad thing to deal with, not only the grief of losing your child, but having complications getting pregnant. I just don't get it, but I have to constantly remind myself that God hasn't forgotten about me!